Well, if you were here, you would have been listening to a medelay of ABBA for the last few hours! Chris, Tina's hubby is (with 3 friends) going to surprise his daughter's 4 H group with a parent "lipsync" version of ABBA's greatest hits!! I for one can't wait till the 13th to watch them do it:-) They are planning on surprising the 4H group, by putting on this 'adult' rendition, after the younger group of 4H have given us all a very fun evening of lipsyncing to an assortment of their favorite (or easier) musical groups!
Can you guys ever remember being part of a club like this? I don't even think they had anything close in the Uk while I was working my way up to being an adult! They had 'youth club' but that was just an excuse for us teenagers to get out of the chores at home that night :-) Anyway, I am looking forward to seeing the parents make an absolute a** of themselves that night! Should be fun:-)
So, I have another 9 days till I get my flight home, it's easy to think I can't wait to get on my way, but honestly, I am wondering if this is going to be pretty rough! I haven't spent a night in the rental by myself since Matthew passed, it is certainly going to be a "learning/coping' process for me. The first thing I will see as I walk in the door, will be Matthew's ashes box:-( it's a little different to having his picture by my bedside. Thinking that it could be a month before Jay gets home is not making this any easier either, how are you supposed to accept the loss of your child? I saw a show on tv last night about a lady that went to grief counselling after her husband died in an accident, she was advised to look in the mirror and tell herself " I am a widow", ok, so what do I say to myself in the mirror? There is no 'word' for a parent that loses a child! it's not the norm', I feel like I shouldn't tell anyone, they feel really bad that they can't say something that will make you feel better, I get it! But do I have to try and make sense of this by myself? I don't think I can.........
huggs Kim x
